So… I’m here listening to music that just reminds me of when I was a little kid. I don’t necessarily wanna go back to my childhood, but I want certain child-like aspects back in my life (not childish…child-like..there is a difference). Something I really remember feeling as a child was a fascination and zeal just to wake up in the morning, that I don’t have today… It’s kinda sad. I want it back. But something that I really am thankful that has translated into these years, is a love for the simple things in life. I find so much joy in seeing someone smile, in watching the sunset, breathing in the LA County air (Yes it smells different compared to Corona air.) I love life. The painful parts of it, the pleasurable parts of it, it’s so beautiful overall in the context of the bigger picture. 

When I lay in my bed at night, I am so thankful for my family.. It’s because of them that I ever had a bed to sleep in, a roof over my head, and someone to love me, unconditionally. Our generation is so lost, and the sad thing is, some people don’t find pleasure in the simplicity anymore, If we’re not getting paid a certain amount of money, If we don’t have a certain car, If we didn’t date a certain girl, we’re not happy. We act like God owes us something…. I’m guilty of this… but he gave me life, a mother who loves me, a father who worked hard to keep us together amidst struggles, a brother who looks up to me, and that more abundantly. On top of that he gave me salvation. That’s amazing in and of itself, but also just the fact that I can breathe in the cool air of the night… is a testimony in and of itself to the goodness of God. So tonight.. I am very…very thankful.